Old fashioned;love story.

2010-09-25T13:37:00.002+08:00

Thanks for being sucha sweetie pie for making my celebration such a beautiful and memorable one it's perfect! love you!
so one in a million you are baby you're the best i ever had. @tabbsbb

Being in love doesn't always mean that u'll have to be together forever. It just means that wherever you may be or no matter what happens our hearts are still linked as one.

2010-08-04T06:11:00.002+08:00

just realized how long ive been using blogspot wtf man hardcore supporter or what?! everyone changed from live journal to tumblr and all that sh*t and im still here. well it's partly because im an IT idiot and i know nuts about creating a new blog but the biggest part of it all is that of my memories it lies with this page most of it and if u realized it's been you, you right from the start.

2010-08-02T10:29:00.006+08:00

My Last post was about 2 months ago didnt notice how fast time flies. Everyone's going into army and i'm still awaiting my turn. Anyway i dont mind the wait though cause i asked for it and im happy i got into ndu for those who didnt know. Quite fortunate i would say i had to go through a test and re-test on the medical part and people don't always get through from what i heard if it's with regards to medical issues. I did the pressure test the first time and i experienced an intolerable sting on my face and i went to google and all it's due to my sinus so the second time before i went i took some medication to clear any blockage from what i read and it worked like a charm but it's suppose to be used on a short term, so still im going to get it check today and see what the doctor says. Pretty grateful i would say be it good or bad so i just hope god can make everything right for me cure my sinus and hope the rest works!

So currently im just enjoying myself mostly, heading out chilling with couple of friends though most would be in by my next post preparing or at least trying to for my enlistment, doing small jobs and all. Anyway i've got much figured out in this period of time knowing what i want planning for the future which is about 5 years from now? like what i'm supposed to do where im headed well that's what the abundance of time im given to be use for isnt it? i believe in every plan that god has plan there is another plan(it's NOT from Inception though it's a great show) like the people he arrange for us to meet there's a purpose it's just whether u stumble upon it or if u're at the right point of time the person will unveil to u your path or give u your 'key' to unlock doors. On a seperate note the other day my boss was telling me "God's kingdom is of great abundance mah so to give u a million dollar is of no problem but then ah he cant just drop it right down from the sky in front of ur face right? cause that would be illegal right? if the government finds out then tax and all how? So he will probably put it in a maze like collecting points in games in the grand total u accumulate approximately that much worth?" it's just that i find that somehow applicable to me not the million dollars but the people around the new the old directing me to my destination. He's one of the directions that helped made up my mind on where and how to get to where i want yet he doesn't know.

Just never been happier before to have lovely people all around after eliminating out those who are not as worthy to share the love as well, to know what i want, to do what i want, to get what i want. In everything these days for instance with tabby there's swells sometimes bigger sometimes smaller ones every now and then but hey i know everything is better or is headed for the best. Just wana take this post to also thank my sweetest dearest girl for the advise love concern and many other things she showered and shared with me which helps me through everything unload any burden off my mind. Hang on to us believing in us even though we nearly ended. It's true and i think without you most things that im having now would be seen of smaller purpose smaller happiness. Thanks love.

2010-06-12T19:01:00.002+08:00

sandwiched middle center in-between. These are the few words when you are caught between difficult situations eg. friends, people and people, ham & bread

if only there's no hate but then again there would be no love.

2010-05-26T05:02:00.001+08:00

King:
"My words fly up, my thoughts remain below: Words without thoughts never to heaven go."

Hamlet (III, iii, 100-103)

Timbaland - Marching on

In this time of uncertainty. i pray; for your answer.

2010-05-21T04:31:00.003+08:00

im not a christian but i believe in god and many other things. when you came into my life i taught and showed you things according to you(haha) but likewise i've learned alot from you. Throughout this relationship i know how much you love me because you do show me in so many ways that even i sometimes can not fathom or think that you would but yet you proved me wrong. even in our darkest hour that i always use my words to hurt you because of the evil me that i m, you stayed by my side and come back to me. There are many out there that doesnt understand this love that we have but i dont care because i know this is the start of something big. i want you to be happy and i know i'm capable of it just wait and see. i thank you for being everything that you are and everything that i want. you'll always be the best thing that has ever happened to me.

greatness is not about doing big things, it's about small little things making big impact.

im a believer and the reason is because you live.

2010-04-26T11:50:00.002+08:00

It's been a really long time since i've last blogged about something according to the date of my previous post. Well it's not dead case anyone's wondering but i just needed to spill my heart on a piece of paper but i've decided to save the trees so here i am, same old same old. Working currently at AC nelson it's a marketing survey company good enough to get by and waiting to enter army which is pretty soon Aug03 SPF(Singapore Police Force). Though i'm appealing for a change into navy or army but well we'll see as it goes, worst to worst i'll just rant on my next post when i book out.
Cheers

This time round I think I deserve something better than a lie. It's as if right from the start, everything was planned to fail because of the clandestine choices u make and what made u. I feel in a way cheated? We were both so smooth sailing at start like I've always imagined it to be and if there's anything we could always have it ironed out because we both have a common understanding and we never fail to be fine after a day angry or two, but this time it's different. u can't even make up your mind though u claimed u had, all your actions seems to be colliding with your words. If u are that obedient to do what u were told to to stay away y can't u be that obedient when it comes to other stuffs? I must admit that I've not given u my 100% but at least I kept no lies between us and I don't betray your trust time and again. Yes we said to not look back and talk about the past but how many times have i forgave u with regards to similar incidents? See, the thing about trust is that it's earned not given and after each time it seems to be so routine. Does that mean that u can be never trusted? I'm not saying that being forgiving is that all great and yes i do know that i'm revengeful and probably over-reacting to some but because the way u seem to treat it so lightly to have it repeated time and again just makes me feel that i cant take this down so easily i'm sensitive and worst over issues like these that ive mentioned and you do know that, and the consequences that comes with it but still you went ahead to doom us. I don't think of u like the way u doubt me with your mentality and actions when it should rightfully be the other way. I don't expect everything from u when I don't fulfill all my parts like u do. These are the fundamentals of a relationship. I'm not laying everything out because I wana tell u or the world hey who's right or wrong because we both have that answer inside our hearts and I think it's suffice. And please don't tell me how much u love me when u can't even show me that u are willing to go through anything to want me back. Yes u might be vulnerable now but you're not useless, love gives us strength and don't tell me u can't do nothing about it or tried your best because this is nothing. If u think having all your friends by u and some other random people to make your day by day and that's your true definition of being happy i wish you well because mine consist everything more than that. On a final note i would like to add that i'm utterly disappointed to come this far after so long to have your mistakes repeated.
So much for betraying the trust of the person u claim to have trust most in your life.

There's no 4 elements only 3.
Love faith and trust

2009-12-08T00:16:00.000+08:00

they told me to take good care of my eyes because they are windows to the world and i think they are half right because the other part is that my world lies in your eyes.

2009-11-05T00:17:00.003+08:00

this blog is pretty much dead, i dont know y i didnt bother to close it down.
though i feel this page is as of a thinking space, a reflective journal, a memory stash,
a blank wall whereby i splash my paint on, to vent my anger and frustrations.

And we dont know why they led us high and dry,
And we dont know why they choose to say or do things to hurt people whom have done them no harm,
And we dont know why they claim that they're your closest people yet give you sh!t everytime,
And we dont know why they can be so happy when they know deep down tt yr upset with them,
And we dont know why they always live their life as if its made up of lies.
And we dont know who they really are.

2009-10-01T13:18:00.002+08:00

i dont know how to go about this seriously, im v clueless. if i should stand my ground or go, tell me what it is that you want and that i'll be. i'll be anything.

in my dreams i saw you looked at me when i was looking at you, you smiled and that's the most beautiful face i've live to see.

2009-09-21T20:30:00.000+08:00

i swear yr so cute, and i think im falling for you. how?

2009-09-12T21:03:00.000+08:00

and they say i live like a wanderer,
living never with a care and taking nothing much too serious.
never staying in a place or thing for more than two seasons
here comes autumn then winter and im off to another.
it's every time i see something and i would thought it might last forever,
i would sing a song play along, hoping this might help keep it just a little longer;
but just suddenly everything inside dies and forever seems much shorten.

crazier

2009-09-11T17:54:00.000+08:00

This holiday is awesome though ive fyp which i didnt really attend cause i never gotten up on time. Last week we went KL the trip was really good we had good food every meal, bought cheap good stuffs, dyed our hair ourselves, clubbed and had hell lot of fun though it's only KL. My 21st is coming in a mth time and i still have no idea of what im gonna do though we've sorta planned to go somewhere near maybe bkk or smth i think. Getting to know so many new people, though i might have actually neglected some of my old friends which is bad so im trying my best to catch up a little here and there with the rest, also not forgetting about seeing the true colors of some other after all these while, pretending to be all good and in the end stab u right in the back. yea u might think i dont know any of these but guess what i actually do. (:
everything seems so wonderful, like a colorful piece of art work.

i need you cause;
somehow,
u seized my heart.

social house

2009-08-21T14:09:00.001+08:00

Anchoring the core of the local night-life nucleus at Liang Court , Clarke Quay ,and with an estimated renovation cost of over $5 million dollars , Social House ,arguably the most sophisticated and architecturally profound mega club in Singapore was constructed.

Promising unrivaled decor , Social House boasts an immense capacity to thrill and entertain
with its main room spinning the hottest RnB hits and its second room , Bubble Bubble playing electrifyingly good House music. Social House , also the largest indoor club in Singapore boasts seven private entertainment rooms designed to capture a sense of luxury and refined style , each room equipped with wireless Internet connection, karaoke facilities and three 40-inch flat screen TVs.

Catering to discriminating club goers , celebrities and the social jet set , Social House is the perfect location for those who are looking to revel in a luxurious privileged world.

Scarlet Entertainment meets Social House again at the end of this month to bring you another groundbreaking Tokyo themed party.

Scarlet Entertaiment Presents
Scarlet ( Shibuya ) at Social House 28th August 2009 FRIDAY !!!!

Cover : $20 ( with one standard drink )

Sounds : DJ Bernard

Payment information: Cash, all major credit cards.

Location: Liang Court . Clarke Quay

Clientele/Age Group: 18

Attire: Dress to impress. No hats, white t-shirts, tank tops, baggy pants, shorts, sandals, flip flops, white tennis shoes, athletic or gym wear of any type.

Occupancy: 1000

Parking: Parking located in garages at the front and rear of Social House. Valet parking at the main entrance of Social House

Reservations: Available for VIP tables and booths.

Seating: Yes, general admission and VIP.

Come! go directly to bulletsnpistols.livejournal.com and comment. see you there!

2009-08-11T04:26:00.001+08:00

last night, went for poker over zd's, joe brought his new set of chips which he bought for crazy 90 bucks. it was pretty fun though i lost 120 $, at first took me all the way till 2pm to recoup till my lost was only like 20? oh anyway we started since midnight so it's freakking crazy. went home to bum then got up not long after for bridget's birthday dinner at vivo. once again the food isn't any good. was supposed to join them for desaru yesterday(so sorry again bridget if yr reading this) but my stupid passport went mia last min and we searched till like 5 in the morning but eventually i gave up and ask them to run along while i go to sleep. remembering the last time i left it on my table but i cant seem to find it anywhere in the house i ransacked the whole place 5 times! i so hope i dont have to go through all the troubles and payment for the stupid penalty i heard there's one for losing it anyway. i need it so baddd cause the ticket price have been rising day by day and ive gotta get it asap if i still wana go on a holiday. so anyway ive seemed to lost all mood to go to school besides debarment period's over i guess? i've been skipping pretty much, today's public hol's, tmr im supposed to have my extra module but it ended so im free still thinking if i should skip wed to make this weekend last a little longer. Lastly im so tired but i dont know y i just cant seem to fall asleep.

sweetheart, now tell me what's it gonna take to make u mine?

2009-08-04T02:09:00.001+08:00

between the trees - darlin'

supper!!!

i dont know where i'm heading, but u just drive me crazy.
staring into those deep set eyes of yours and the world's in another world.
going against the crowd, definitely not the most popular decision,
you're the one that stopped me.
i don't know what i needed, maybe a name and a number.
but what's my pickup line again? ok im so nervous i have them all forgotten.
you said hi and i melted.
maybe its not the finale, but someday jus someday.

2009-07-26T02:02:00.002+08:00

Going in circles.

I've been so lazy to blog lately i don't know y? when i can play typing maniac for awhile when im bored sometimes. So anyway this few weeks have been crazy but still the usuals. Drinks more drinks and club. I'm coughing like a dog now but i couldnt care less, cause i just came back from forbidden city, had some drinks met some new people, Nicky's birthday ended there. Feels like ive been chasing my own tail these days, going round and round. I have no destination no goals no worries. And it's not good really. I dont know what I want I cant figure anything out. I think i just need some time sit back relax and finish up whatever i have left off in all aspects. There's so many things i wana accomplish yet so little time due to NS, though i know it's still half year away from now but still...... So i realised from meeting new people making new friends all good people, you get to learn more about the bigger world thats out there, not only your tiny social circle and worst of all in some cases your few pathetic fake friends that you actually believe that they will be there for you when they're not because they arent truly your friends to begin with. (yea its true some people are seriously that dumb not to realise.) Apart from all of these i have a little note. How i learn that even people close to you can be so devious coming behind u to sneak on u. And they thought they are safe and everyone knows nothing, but i guess everyone's being watched by someone. Even the closest people would want to hurt you in some ways they didnt think they would. Whatever it is you can go s*ck on it cause i don't need you.

2009-07-10T02:22:00.002+08:00

james morrison - please dont stop the rain

For tonight, i just wana say that i really love my friends alot whether all of you know it or not.

hearts collide , fireworks in the sky.

2009-07-02T23:30:00.002+08:00

twenty one guns - greenday

i wan all of this to last for as long as it can. no sorrows only joy only good times good booze good friends good people good food and more good people.

which is worst, to lose yourself or find a devil living within you.

2009-06-30T04:42:00.000+08:00

oh booze please go away.

2009-06-26T17:38:00.004+08:00

i so shouldnt still be here, everyone's gone overseas on a holiday and i was supposed to go too this s*ck! its not that it's that bad here but i love holidays! elsewhere out of here definitely! cause its damn boring, everyday's so routine wake up eat gym club drinks swim online sleep everyday's about the same and even if it wasn't there's nowhere much to go or that could interest me to go to. Anyway ive enrolled for my bike and hopefully i wouldnt be too lazy to start on the lessons soon but traveling back and forth to bbdc going there with a stupid helmet going there after being so run over by 8-5 classes so not cool anyway my panel 2 presentation for my fyp is due the 2nd week after school reopens and im not sure what the heck is going on, me and my group members havent started how great is that hopefully we wont have to slap ourselves and finish by the end of next week which is quite impossible. So anyway the hol's ending already i cant wait for school to start, ok i dont know which do i want more a longer holiday or the reopening of the school. Today we are heading to town for kelvin's 20th advance birthday celebration, dining there and i dont know what else after that but i should be bumping at a club or something haven't figured which.So, for those who still didnt know. the king of pop michael jackson just passed away, it's quite a shock cause he's still not that old and if i didnt remembered wrongly 3 weeks away from his last concert that was sold out within an hour the news was out. i so thought my friend was kidding when she texted me.

Do not question the final fate god holds cause no one escapes the grims of death when the time comes.

2009-06-19T02:36:00.002+08:00

smells like holiday.

we went batam for the sun, its damn good very serene and light. Everything's going at a very slow place just like the country side. We did knee and wake boarding, it's my first time there doing this cable ski there's one over Ecp though but the price is really slaughtering. So anyway for a first timer though all these seemed pretty simple just holding on to the handle following the cable passing through some obstacles some mini hops and stuns it's damn tough especially for wakeboarding the lift off took me quite awhile cause u needed stabilize position yourself control ur pull and everything to do a proper lift off kept falling flat and backwards at first then with more practice we did better. Its really fun and pretty cheap i would say they charge like 90 bucks for everything including lunch though it's nt to my liking, i would recommend most of you to head there give it a shot cause its really worth it if u have never tried cable skiing or even if u did the rates there is absolutely attractive. Didnt manage to sleep the night before i went there so i was almost knocked out doing all that exercise, once we stopped at the ferry terminal we loaded on booze and ciggies cause its dirt cheap i would say. After i came back went home to take a short rest changed then head down to zouk, saw quite a number of people i know of and the night was pretty happening i would say. For now im too tired to blog any further gotta head to bed now still a long day tomorrow.

live the future

2009-06-17T07:16:00.003+08:00

cableskiiiiiii, sun !!! here i come!!! lets go lets go, lets go lets go.

drinks, smoke rings, butterflies; living the life.

2009-06-14T18:11:00.001+08:00

HELL OF A NIGHT!!

Vivica Fox

A great figure or physique is nice, but it's self-confidence that makes someone really sexy.

2009-06-12T00:03:00.002+08:00

and they say everyday's a new day. survived the past, live the future.

welcome to my life

2009-06-07T02:27:00.001+08:00

BRING SOME BALLS.

and for the record you don't know sh*t to being with, so dont act like u know cause i wasn't. (:

2009-05-30T14:26:00.002+08:00

Thanks for showing me the way, i know exactly where to head now cause she used to be the girl that's worth everything, now i realize nothing. It's stupid to sometimes not be able to see everything so clearly when you're in the picture, but im so glad to know tt people out there still care still love and still have my back. Yesterday was quite a bomb everything happened, the good and bad. Such an irony, the people i'm with, the people i saw, the people i spoke to. her friends, her 'enemies', new people, better people its like everything's coming together as one, million pieces of puzzles forming a picture, it's telling me something and now i know what it is. But whatever it is she's trying to show me it's a huge disappointment cause i think she deserves much better than what i see what i know.

PS: it's hilarious yet sympathetic

you are right there's nothing u can do, that's how it feels like.
fyi u made me

2009-05-26T23:01:00.002+08:00

what a lonesome world.

2009-05-24T16:25:00.004+08:00

James morrison feat Nelly furtado - broken strings

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me, now I can't feel anything
When I love you and so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else
Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay
You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?
Oh, what are we doing?
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us
Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late, too late
Oh, it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay
You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?
But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late, too late
You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse
So how can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before?
Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before
Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again.

we did so many things just to make ourselves remember yet do so many things to make ourselves forget, we try so hard to make things work yet it always backfires back on us. we always thing we have what we want in life till something big goes missing and all we're left is loneliness in our hearts. And in splits of seconds everything could be changed forever.

love like childhood fairy tales both dont exist.

2009-05-16T19:43:00.002+08:00

Katy perry - thinking of you

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes.

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of a winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the water's I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What do I do would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay.

2009-05-08T01:04:00.001+08:00

state of confusion.

2009-04-28T01:31:00.002+08:00

take a plunge into the deep, run into a brick wall, falling off the cliff, jump a plane spread ur wings and pretend to fly, dash across the highway. Do anything you want, just be happy.

2009-04-09T01:19:00.004+08:00

Kevin Rudolf ft. Rick Ross - Welcome to the World

do we sometimes get lost in the dark or do we find our way back through the dark?
do we find what u seek, or do we seek what we find?
tame the demon, seek resurrection. is this that simple?

being dangerous is the most safety anyone can search for.

2009-03-31T04:11:00.006+08:00

shinedown - second chance

it's going 5 am and im still up cause i havent been sleeping normally throughout this holiday which is also equals to not sleeping before dawn break. The two months holiday's gonna be over in no time, come to think of it there's nothing much ive done everyday's the same as today yesterday and tomorrow. So many things to get to but im not sure where to start, aunt's looking for a piano teacher for me cause her kids are learning and she so happen to have contacts so we are still comparing and looking, havent enrol for bike since i've said 10 years ago, need a job but im quite picky i would say so i end up jobless yet again but i'll keep looking still, call the ME director because ive been thrown into another class doing some design stuff which i dont really mind compared to robotics but i dont know more than one person in that class and i dont intend on making friends with the rest because i dont think it would be easy to communicate partly due to the fact that they are foreigners dont get me wrong i dont dislike them its just different frequency and i dont understand y isit so unfair that aaron meng and wx gets to be in the same class whereas im thrown into the furnace damn! they asked me to try opting over too i hope tt happens though like i said they are doing freakkin robotics but yea beats being in a class filled with funny( i wouldnt say weird cause its rude) people. There's problem with enrolling my IS module i have no idea y and im so planning to check too seems like everything is going in the wrong way and the whole system is screwed and i happen to be in this s*** to have to do everything myself through all the appropriate channels which is bad cause its damn troublesome. Tomorrow i'll probably wake up at 5+ ? and its Lester's birthday celebration and he expects me to be there but cal and i promised aloy to have mahjong so guess i just have to rush down and join him after hopefully not to drink for his 21st and that he wouldnt be mad at me. And theres so much coming to brood cause they are planning a trip to perth and im in a huge dilemma cause theres alot involving i really wana go but cash cal and last min is always bad worst part an answer in three days so we'll just see as it goes hopefully i can make it then at least theres something else to look forward to in june and i believe its gonna be a blast!
Oh fyi i just got my hair cut short so i dont look so messy i guess, as i did.

your deepest darkest secret hides in you, but it haunts you, eats you up slowly on the inside and the only right thing to do is to destroy it.

2009-03-16T00:29:00.003+08:00

i found this in one of my folder and i think its freakkiinn funny ok he's my buddy please do not mock thanks. oh and i call this squashed bunny.
heart.
heart girl.
thats what all guys do when travelling up escalator ok just kidding.
i dont know y my hair ends up sticking out everywhere but i do know that i was forced to smile with my teeth on the above pic
shoes.

these few days have been mahjong madness cause ive been changing my daily routine to mahjong after midnight all the way till morning for the past few days. Didnt have time to do anything much lol though i finally played soccer after one zillion years im as tired as hell. im really happy that liverpool thrashed man u and rooney can eat his words. im hoping too that liverpool can win the FA cup and the Premier league and that i can find enough khakis for mahjong tmr and we could all have lots of fun and this post is a random post, goodbye.

2009-03-08T05:26:00.003+08:00

Just thinking back, remember when we have those little diaries that we keep with cartoons all over the covers, to have our friends jot down their particulars and information for instance their name address or whatever nots then we exchange here and there to have as many of our friends autographed on it. I was thinking about it and then one of the few columns strikes me. best friends gold friends silver friends copper friends i know its silly and that it might also sound quite girly but ya that was a long time ago whereby we grade or differentiate our friends. Now that we have all grown theres lesser and lesser categories in which we group them. for me its just buddies good friends and acquaintance, slowly your circle of friends would change, people coming in and going out of your life and thats when u can tell who's the one always there for u and know that they will always be there in times of good and bad. thats smth i wouldnt trade anything for. And we dont go around asking like eh m i your best friend or dont friend you, like kids any longer. we have a kind of understanding and compromise between each other knowing whats best and whats not and even if we dont we just do whatever we can and that suits perfectly fine, like when we keep our other half of biscuit in our lunch box to share it with our best friend during k2. in anyway im really happy to know that there are quite a few wonderful people around me and im thankful for that love u people!

com'on i need to get my bike license and dad please get a car for christ sake!!!!

2009-02-02T01:01:00.001+08:00

and before you i was a dreamer and in reality i know im really fortunate to have you as my girl.

2009-01-29T00:19:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !
well i do knw its kinda late bt i havent been blogging lately cause im too lazy to even on my com at most times. Its been pretty much the same these days just maybe better with everything. So anyway back to the main topic hopefully everyone of you out there have gotten your big red packets! though mine has shrunk this year, erm yea i think its due to the recent bad economy. Fortunately i went over to roy's yesterday and won a little more to top it up. we played black jack, in between and afew other games. I dont usually gamble apart from cny cause its THE season, and i think its the same for everyone, hopefully we'll go for another round this weekend over jerry's. i love cny because i have sponsors for shopping yummmmm. i bought 3 pairs of cheap monday 1 creme boat shoe some Tees 2 Shirt alot of socks and briefs (for gambling) and im hapee. And after the long weekend i havent found the energy to wake up early this morning and so i pon school again and it sucks cause if i dont submit my mc im officially debarred wtf?! i cant wait for the upcoming 2 months break or is it? but that also means that the finals are coming and i dont knw sh*t again think it's time to mug seriously zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
Lastly i need smth to do!!!! a job or smth becoz ive been slacking for way to longgggg and its time to make some use of my time if i have any left.

u make me wana rush down 3am in the morning to have you in my arms.

2008-12-14T18:03:00.002+08:00

everyday's the same going through the motion. Nothing has changed, the biggest change is only in you and i dont know how to handle this anymore, i need u to take my hand hold it tight then whatever it is we'll see it through together like we always have, not now not like this not when you are something unfamiliar cause deep down i know u are mine and i know a way to figure u out.

2008-12-03T02:17:00.002+08:00

someone once told me that we are connected to everyone or someone through god, it's like he's between everyone of us holding on to either sides of his hand connecting the other and the world and i do believe its true

2008-11-24T00:29:00.002+08:00

Exams coming in two weeks time what a b**** totally not prepared, this semester is much more slack than the previous one though ive got three papers for my common test but as for my finals i have only two compared to four of my last half of the year that's good good news. anyway my aunt wants me to go to Philippines with her on the 8th to 12th but f*** that's my exam week wtf? she wants to 'hire' me to help her out there and im so stressed out contemplating whether to be medically absent from my papers but there are tons of factors to be considered cause if i do take the second paper it would be pretty much tougher i heard and like five days of mc i needa have a hell load of reasons to bomb before i pass and of course five days without cal. Yesterday met up with the guys ok not all of them but still finally most came we went to dempsey for EYES-CREME YAY then went over holland to slack. And i spent full day with cal today alone tt's pretty rare i would admit ok sorli. we watched body of lies at tamp its pretty good i think, its about terrorism and a scene of gruesome act of the lead's hand being smashed by a hammer it's acted by leonardo di caprio if i got tt name right mm.. thats abt all. Gotta rest early long day tmr, i hate mondays 8 - 5 school 7 - 9 swim die.

the world will turn its back on you, no one will be there to sympathize you everyone will walk away from you and none will remember you.

2008-11-05T00:33:00.004+08:00

nothing much these days just been gng sentosa every week, gyming with daren and guys meeting cal, aloy, roy and gang. been busy and lazy to blog but whatever anyway im bored now. school work is piling up like cow dung and i cant catch up definitely damn saddening gotta start revision with cal. but the best part of everything is that i can finally drive legally since 2 weeks ago.

proud to say i'm 200 percent happy being with cal that's about all.

they say our brains reacts in splits of seconds when we send a signal to it, what if our hearts could only react just as fast and realize when receiving all the emotional hurt and prevent it from devastating us? we are all sand bags being thrown punches now and then till someday we burst from the inside that's hardly avoidable in most circumstances.

2008-10-17T01:05:00.002+08:00

devour by the darkness once my eyelids close, for this humanity brings so much to fear. fear of losing and fading away. but when it opens bright lights poured into it filling every corners flooding it with so much pureness and white and there you are that angelic face standing there taking my attention off everything else and the rest goes forgotten.

miss so much that it aches, love so much that it tears.

2008-10-09T04:20:00.004+08:00

absolute disco, chivas , vodka pear, vodka mango, jack daniel's black, braun buffel card holder, dickies bagpack, singlet, nudie black coated jeans, jack purcell grey, cookies

thanks for everything though i cant thank all of u in detail individually. but i love all the presents and celebrations thanks a million for making everything so wonderful and memorable. shall post the pictures soon!

2008-10-02T04:56:00.000+08:00

ji wants a post for himself ok so here goes..................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................
end.

2008-10-01T05:56:00.004+08:00

it's funny how people meet, people get hurt, people smile, people grief, people rejoice, people live, people die, people fell out of love, people fell in love.

today when i thought about experiencing in life i think its really important indeeeeed. cause they leave u wonderful memories someday when you look back you can laugh it off, cry or feel whatever memories it brings back. i have had some good some bad, some experienced some still experiencing. though i have yet to walk through the still many days and years ahead of me, i would say that i have tried things i want to try, do things i wana do. i have had embarrassing moments, fun times, sad times, confuse times, many other kinds of emotions mixed feelings and experiences. which drives me to my perspective of love. i once thought that i could never love as madly or as fiercely as i first did because i believed that its the spark that ignite and no matter how gentle or graceful the flame sway in the stillness of the dark it could never be as beautiful as it begun. but i was wrong because there is always someone out there for someone else and glad to say i have found her, though there have been ups and down but as a whole i would say im more than contented with whatever i have and not ask for more for there's no more that can be asked. just so you know you really

amaze me. thanks.

2008-09-22T03:38:00.004+08:00

if i were to write a primary school composition with the title: my baby

i have a girlfriend her name is calista lye yan ling. she is twenty years old this year. her favourite color is lime-green and mine is red and blue there is no link but im just telling all of you. she is very fair because she dislikes the sun and sports. her likes are food and more food and disturbing me. she is jelly-like thats why i nicknamed her jelly but she is really thin. the reason why i love her is because she cares alot about me and she does everything to make me happy and feel loved. she's sweet like pancakes with extra honey like the one my mom bring me to have every sunday morning. she has big bright brown pair of eyes, everytime i look into it i see someone that i can never find that's why i think she's the best girl in the whole class.

like a hurricane you blown my mind away

2008-09-17T03:09:00.001+08:00

it's not always rainbows and butterflies. Tell me about it.

2008-09-15T04:18:00.004+08:00

60days of love.

guard with all your might, treasure with all your life, love with all your heart.

love you everyday and night.

2008-09-10T19:39:00.005+08:00

too lazy to type, tomorrow's gonna be a busy day. work gym prac zzz. anyway i enjoyed today with jelly. thanks for everything!

Lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY NAN!

2008-09-04T02:01:00.005+08:00

JI'S BIG DAY.

1/2 clement's gang and jeremy oh! and 1st dish though we didnt manage to take all the pictures of the scrumptious food

jeremy on high.

on high again, no idea what's he doing sometimes dont ask me.

jon feeding roy sweeeet.

girlfriend + buddy = happy!

smoke break.

the guys.

twist.

.

roy and cal.

unprepared.

sway.

girl

lovers.

The night before we sorta surprised him over some rooftop park at queenstown we decorated the place with balloons and loads of stuff, put on our party hats and masks then waited for him to come to claim his presents and finish his cake after which we went to geylang for supper then rested for the day, as we were supposed to finish the 'celebration' the following day.
Which is where we went for a movie (walle), then headed off to dinner at singapore flyers(seafood paradise). After that a few of us went to crash over ji's place at senja for movie marathon erm. bucket list and sydney white. i would say all the movies watched on his birthday was pretty good, food was fantastic, presents i guess so he received quite afew good one's like the one's i gave :X and hope he too was happy with his birthday. And anyway ji if yr reading this next year's birthday dont send me romantic sms when we are on our way home just say thanks will do. Tons of pictures i dont have with me probably could refer to bridget's blog or wait till someone sends me then i'll update. till then!

Ralph Waldo Emerson once said:
It is not length of life, but depth of life.

2008-08-24T02:51:00.003+08:00

Exams just ended like yesterday, so as usual went zouk to celebrate i guess? Saw quite a number of people, the place was packedddd. Missed leon's birthday party cause i promised to club already and i feel kinda bad really but hopefully i can make up for it tomorrow though i still have no idea what's the plan. Anyway just came back frm chilling out with des and clique. Chatted about tons of stuffs the going ons and some of our little problems, its been a long time since we came out and chill like this so i guess it was all good. Jelly came over after zouk last night to ease my throbbing headache :X and we went for lunch this afternoon soon as we got up at tiong bahru plaza, we ate over sakae pasta it's a new outlet and its a pretty great place for food i would say. We then headed off to town to meet yi hui after which they both left to meet their friends and carried on with their plan wheras i went to meet the guys. Tomorrow's gonna be a long day zZzzZzz meeting ji at 11 hopefully if we both do get up gym jog swim tann then meeting cal later in the day (: after which celebrating leon's birthday mostly by downing more booze again bored. Anyway now that exam's have already ended it really ease my mind a whole lot and i can solely enjoy the best of my times which is spending with cal (forced to say). so yea this couple of days or weeks i would say be pretty good though i dont really have time for friends or love ones we compromised and all and im really thankful for the understanding and everything. love you many many. havent been blogging lately so i'll just post pictures altogether the next time i blog soon hopefully.

and i hope time makes everything right.
powerful yet powerless

2008-08-15T01:02:00.003+08:00

30 days. <3 calista.
love has a way of creeping into each one of us, over time and you have the secret way to my heart.

2008-07-30T15:19:00.002+08:00

this few days have been rather tough and tedious, tons of test and major exams coming up. staying over burning midnight oil to mug resulting in pimple outbreak. Hopefully all this can be over soon and that would be probably 3 weeks time? then hol's! fun work play cal. And wads up with dudes trying to screw my tagboard up? are people getting so bored that the human race is actually becoming extinct unknowingly? fyi if u dont like the idea of me or whom im with then dont even come over this site, cause if u do come all the way here jus to make all ur mediocre remarks that are meaningless then im honoured cause u go through all the hassle and all the necessities to come here and try ur very best to make my day a little worst which doesnt even work at all, it aint gonna change nothing. who i m and who im with will stay the same get a life.

Ayn Rand once said:
Mediocrity doesn't mean average intelligence, it means an average intelligence that resents and envies its betters.

2008-07-24T22:13:00.002+08:00

screwed my tp up literally, dont wana go any further about that. But ya nxt tp's in 2month time and i really hope i cld refresh out an earlier slot somehow. planning to register for bike like next week or smth first though banned by family but still i'd love to get the license first then decide. tomorrow's nicky's birthday and i'm still contemplating whether to go due to circumstances. On sat we're gonna have our test for work at wild wild wet damn sian and tough, hope we would be able to make it through then it would be all good... having exams in about 3 weeks time and i dont know a single sh!t i swear, guess i've to mug with the guys over aaron's place probably tomorrow night or smth. boringgggggg

2008-07-13T23:36:00.004+08:00

members.
half drunk, half suicidal

Oh and we saw Fiona xie that night, she's hot.Today's first day at wild wild wet. It was fun and tiring of course and im burnt. too tired to go any further

2008-07-07T01:25:00.003+08:00

new _|_ hair thanks to barber.

2008-07-04T01:14:00.000+08:00

suicide valley.

heart calcalcalcalcalcalcalcalcalcalcalcalcal

2008-07-02T00:55:00.004+08:00

zouk.

81 words

http://speedtest.10-fast-fingers.com">Speed test

the working title - under the ground

Maybe everyone's to blame
Cuz I can't fall in love to save
All the world or anyone else
Turn on the TV and fade
Maybe it's only me
Talk to me now
Why do you run from me
Walk up to me
Like we've never met
Break into me
I need you more than you know
Oh no, I'm under the ground
Tell me if you want to be
Lonely or if there should be
Someone else tell me it's me
Let's run away in the rain
My parts are falling out it's useless
No one can save me now I'm under
Somebody's painted house I hear their
Surrounding voices fade when I decide to stay
It's four in the morning
I'm naked and staring at the wall
In my lonely apartment room
And I'll swear to your beauty
I'm sorry that I'm so messed up
Don't hate me
When I'm under the ground

2008-06-22T20:27:00.002+08:00

school's starting tomorrow, boring. havent seen my classmates for like 2 weeks plus, hope they're still alive or not. whatever it is i think im gonna get spain tonight and they better win. And ive gotten myself a new gadget its called s*** the handphone, im using 8250 now cause my phone's spoilt and ive been living on it for the past couple of days, the screen is a blank and i can only use the loudspeaker nice. so anyway its been awhile since i last blogged cause i wasnt really home mostly cause no 1's home and i dont like being home alone. tomorrow's monday and i hate mondays, ive gt driving after school which means i cant gym and i havent been gyming much lately everythings screwed i'd be thankful if i cld sleep early later and not skip sch.

and hopefully dreams do come true.

2008-06-18T04:06:00.001+08:00

IF HOLLAND WINS BIG $$$$.
busy busy 0 time to blog.

2008-06-14T15:33:00.001+08:00

"if all else perished, and she remained, i should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and she annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger."

2008-06-07T17:42:00.002+08:00

Havent been updating recently due to post exams stress and tons of work to do so here goes. MY PAPERS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!!! this couple of weeks have been super tedious late nights and super early mornings just to mug and prepare for four papers -.- Bt as they say the results are jus additions what matters most is the process, im saying this because i screwed 1 of my papers up definitely. So anyway last night i went zouk with roy calvin and gang ji and jerms came to join us nt soon after, by 2 we were already pretty drunk so me ji and jerms head to mos first to look for the girls bt they took super long. damn tuuu and i was super tired and my head was alrdy throbbing like mad then. so anyway aaron just called me and asked me to join him to work at wild wild wet which sounds really fun but im still contemplating as its really quite a distance to travel and the pay isnt all that good besides ive gt a couple of jobs on hand presently so we'll just see how it goes. So now comes holiday in which ive gotta work and continue my driving practs, totally suck but what to do. And i cant wait to see the gang soon

2008-05-20T06:30:00.004+08:00

everyday seems to be a routine gng through the motion repeatedly like a programmed robot. im packed with stuff so busy that i can hardly breathe or even tune myself to the right timing to sleep, for instance at this hour of the day even blogging, staying up throughout the night doing nth only with the company of my book not that its not good enough considering past mid-night there's nth more exciting than my book but with the whole day ahead in a few hours time, think im gng to die. i need to find a way to break free from this, whatever it is. im officially sick of it. it's not whatever i do that defines the boredom of it but rather i feel as if smth's amiss from whatever im up to now seriously. i work my way through, stumbling bt still to no avail. i need smth that i would look forward to every single minute im away from it, maybe just that faint spark. it's as if i sense the direction but i cant tell where's my destination, all i know is that everythings a blur and a spin beside me. Hopfully, someday i might be able to find my way through the dark in the thick fog that the beam of the sun can so hardly penetrate.

and again it seems like my glass is filled to the brim with sheer emptiness.

These violent delights have violent ends
And in their triumph die, like fire and power,
Which, as they kiss, comsume

Romeo and Juliet, Act II, Scene VI

2008-05-19T01:21:00.004+08:00

Damn tired and stressed out throughout. projects, essays, homework, common test; tons and tons of uncompleted work waiting to be done piling up mountain high. Anyway my books have been real good company these days they are seriously awesome and now im proceeding to new moon yea! and i do seriously need a hair cut.

over the week.

the working title - beloved

come to me like in my dreams

Spinning everything

And all the while my bones fight

Not to crash down

Now that I know you can be

Everything I need

And anything

I'd do to

Find your name

Because in my subconscious

I feel so complete

When we're rolling over hills

In the Messiah Land

Watching angels as I speak

Soaring over me

Because every day is a race into the night

I could try to find out

Why these old wings won't fly

Until I close my eyes

Count the lines

And find I'm soaring high

Oh to look up and find you with wings on tight

Your head faced down

You're spinning around

Crashing down on me

Beloved

Follow me to where we hid

The rest of our longs lives

Dreaming in the sun to float away

The manna mysteriously will nourish every day

And thanking God we fold down to pray

I'll find you

And you'll know me from all your dreams

And I'll be everything that I know you can be dreaming.

Loving And I'll be everything

Please come whisper all you know

About this thing called love

And feel it as you speak

Draw you to me

Note the swell that passion brings

And feel it in the air

Come step of from your ledge to soar with me

2008-05-11T21:32:00.001+08:00

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant wait to get my hands on them

2008-05-10T19:00:00.003+08:00

yesterday after class we went for our lesson at yishun complex anyway yishun is a shit place because its damn far from everywhere the bus ride from school took about an hour and most of us were doozing off with out heads banging against the window panes along the way nice. started around 7 its been like a mth since we all last swam we did a couple of laps for warm up and we were already quite exhausted next up we were suppose to swim like 50 m to the casualty and then tow back with an aid of a long sleeve shirt within 315 when we came back our legs were seriously wobbly like jelly bt fortunately i made it within the given timing and i was quite glad since im a really slowpoke swimmer after that we had to do a couple more rescues and by 745 we were all flat, practice for cpr for awhile and i had to rush back home to get change and meet up the guys for movie at cine the show was ' the maid of honour ' its really a good show and i reccomend u people to go catch it.
till then.

oasis- stop crying your heart out;

Hold up
Hold on
Dont be scared
Youll never change whats been and gone
May your smile
Shine on
Dont be scared
Your destiny may keep you warm
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
Youll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your wayAnd stop crying your heart out
Get up
Come on
Whyre you scared?
Youll never change
Whats been and gone
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
Youll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Cos all of the stars
Are fading away
Just try not to worry
Youll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart ou
tWere all of us stars
Were fading away
Just try not to worry
Youll see us some day
Just take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out

2008-05-08T02:25:00.005+08:00

the hat belongs to aaron's father i think, and we look like cbs

we somewhat look like this after staying up for the whole night at aaron's places

i think i can breathe fire because my throats feels like a ****ing furnace i think im dying soon thank you.

in a few hours time,
9 -4 school
4 - 6 gym
730 - 9 prac
everyday's a tiring day like dog

2008-05-04T03:39:00.004+08:00

all was quite drunk alrdy lol

lets see, lecturer bastard me by reporting me to student welfare wtf? damn sway! but anyway it was over. hm.. went mos on wed due to the freaggin scary crowds at zouk that day bt somehw faggot hairul gt in because he was like 10 mins earlier than me?? then phuture on friday drink like mad dog erm.. watched harold and kumar, iron man both shows are i would say a must watch. Test on monday and wed quite dead if i dont start mugging because the lecturer that's marking me will pick on me again if i fail according to him. Skipped work for 1017309 days only worked once this week because i was too busy with driving and other silly stuffs, oh the instructor's damn cool and funny, because he told me to park the car by the road 1/2 an hr after i started then i was like wtf? bt i kept quiet he then brought be to the kopitiam for heineken then back to driving oh he showed me stunts after lessons and promise to teach me after i pass my tp damn dope lol

THE DOPE !!

Plot:

During a business trip to Afghanistan to demonstrate his company's new weapon system, Tony Stark is attacked and kidnapped by a terrorist group called the Ten Rings that order him to build them a version of Stark Industries' "Jericho Missile", an extremely destructive, multi-warhead weapon. Instead, over the next three months with the aid of a fellow captive, Dr. Yinsen (Shaun Toub), he builds a crude but very strong power armor, powered from a miniature arc reactor Stark and Yinsen built to power an electromagnet "pacemaker", which protects Stark's heart from the embedded shrapnel in his chest. Dr. Yinsen is killed in the ensuing escape attempt when he stalls the guards to buy Stark enough time to charge the suit. Killing several terrorists and destroying their stockpile, Stark is able to get away, and is later picked up by the Air Force. Upon returning to the United States, Stark declares that Stark Industries will no longer manufacture weapons, a move which his business partner Obadiah Stane tells him is blocked by the board members shortly after.
During his self-imposed sabbatical from public life, Stark tinkers with the design of his power suit, refining it to be capable of flight, and builds a more powerful and reliable arc reactor, both to power his pacemaker and the suit. During his first public appearance since his kidnapping, he is shown pictures of Stark Industries weapons in the hands of terrorist groups, including the system he refused to build for them. He also discovers that Stane has been "dealing under the table" to both sides in the conflict, as well as being the one to shut Stark out of the board while he recovers. Faced with the realization of what his company has done, Stark dons the power suit and flies to Afghanistan, rescuing those from the village Yinsen from the Ten Rings. In destroying their weapon stockpiles, he accidentally draws the attention of the United States Air Force and his friend Jim Rhodes.
Determined to make amends for his mistakes, Stark sends his assistant Pepper Potts to find the shipping records of Stark Industries, so he can track down the illicit shipments and destroy them. While hacking into the system she discovers that it was Stane who hired the Ten Rings to kill Stark, but they had reneged on the deal when they realized who the target was. She also discovers that Stane has recovered the power suit prototype (Iron Man Mk I), and has reverse engineered his own version, but not before Stane has stolen Stark's arc reactor right out of his chest to power it, leaving Stark for dead. Using his first reactor, which was not designed to power the suit, Stark does battle with Stane in Los Angeles, defeating him when the larger arc reactor that powers Stark Industries is deliberately overloaded. Stark barely makes it out alive when his reactor almost fails completely, but reactivates. Afterwards, Stark makes his identity public at a press conference.

OK SAY SUPA HE-ROLL

ok go watch damn nice.

2008-04-28T21:32:00.002+08:00

today's monday and guess what? i hate mondays. today i started school at 8 am and it ended at 5 which means it's equivalent to working + we stayed back to do a little revision which turns out to be some bean bag tau pok party in the library if u get what i mean. After which i went to the gym and on the way i met lu ti so we ran and did a couple of excercises erm.. left arnd 8 hm.. super tired bt i saw quite a couple of friends there like hairul jun bin james wei jie and afew others training as well. so on my way home i bought shilin's krispyyyy chickon with extra picey powdor. and i saw this guy whom looks like a family guy in his mid like what thirties? he doesnt look gay bt he was carrying bags of groceries at this hour arnd my area's traffic junction and he suddenly tapped me and said hi and acted like we knew each other and i swear ive nvr seen him in my life ever before so i just entertain him and played along chat alittle then ciao liao then beneath my block i saw xue yi erm my primary school classmate cum crush ok sounds funny bt thats like dinosaur times so who cares, she commented tt ive changed alot and i dont know hw bt yea catched up alittle, sometimes its good to see someone u havent seen for many many many hours, see hw they are doing and maybe u can feel happy for them. Arrived home and saw my brother fiddling with my lappy __ he needs a smack because he didnt complete his homework and tried lying to me abt no homework and crap after which i brought myself more trouble cause ive gotta prepare him for his stupid dictation? wtf? ok so that's all for today and tmr's IS day so i guess i can jus chill till dawn breaks i guess? and im really glad and thankful to the lady whom returned me my wallet thank you x 10000

2008-04-28T00:32:00.002+08:00

fuck! someone returned my wallet for the 3rd time woohoooo!! everyone around me suddenly seemed like angles! and put school and work aside i cant wait till wednesday people. ZOUK TIME.

2008-04-24T20:26:00.000+08:00

fuck i lost my wallet very nice.

2008-04-24T01:26:00.000+08:00

Fightstar - paint your target

You hide it everytime you miss,
Patience waits around for me,
You dance under the question mark,
Without even trying.
I'm just not sure it's gonna work, I'm just not sure it's gonna work.
You can burn it all,
Rally around the table if you want to,
Just to argue out the last scenes of us,
You can end it all,
I'm sorry enough to tell you that I'm okay and I'm never gonna see you again
The killers walking amongst us,
Look around they'll find your ashes,
You cradle over your mistakes,
And every heart you'll never break
I'm just not sure it's gonna work,I'm just not sure it's gonna work.
You can burn it all,
Rally around the table if you want to,
Just to argue out the last scenes of us,
You can end it all,
I'm sorry enough to tell you that I'm okay and I'm never gonna see you again, again.
You stumble through questions that you could never answer,
The barrel is loaded so go and paint your target
You can burn it all,
Rally around the table if you want to,
Just to argue out the last scenes of us,
You can end it all,
I'm sorry enough to tell you that I'm okay and I'm never gonna see you again.
So and again you stand around,With beautiful falls.

2008-04-14T23:27:00.003+08:00

today was 1st day of school it was fun and crazy as usual we posed as year 1s and acted like idiots roaming around the campus and putting our faces on the faceboard if you know what that is, but whatever when we were back into class all of us were as dead as a log and doozed off throughout lol i slept for like 2 hrs last night only and i dont knw y i cant get to sleep, so anyway a new term new start. hopefully things would turn out better as it goes. so after a hectic day of long hrs in school i went over to meet ji and group to celebrate clement's birthday we went for a movie at lido and it was pretty good the show's called virgin territory and mischa burton is damn hott to the max; after which we went over cream bistro for dinner though i havent been there for awhile the food still taste as great, we then ended everything on our last stop at clark quay having some cakes as a mini celebration so its been a long day but yea guessed i enjoyed every bit of it and last happy birthday clement!

Cause I'm not here to be around

And be that boy that you forget about

Cause all I want is just to be a song

That you can feel longer than just right now

So come on baby let me be the boy

That you can count on to rock your world

And then you'll see that you and me belong

2008-04-14T00:05:00.004+08:00

finally today i passed my lifesaving 1 2 3 and starting bm soon and screw everything else cause school's starting tmr and my eyes are still wide open like an owl.

sometimes u lose yourself to everything around you over time unknowingly; not knowing who you become and when u turn around, you realise that that's not who u wana be. and no matter hw hard u clenched your fist to clasped the fine grains of sands in your hand they will eventually find a way to seep through the crevices as time past.

even if you have the world but there's no one to share it with that's a true pity.

2008-04-12T04:09:00.000+08:00

You can't all pretend
That you don't know enough
Enough to make sense
All this will be gone
And you can sink beneath
The rapture we've spawned
What have we become
You know we don't have all the entire world
To make the floods seem still
You know we don't have all the entire world
To make the most of this
Blood will bleed the blind
When the only thing diseased their lives
Let not the sun their lives
On the wrath of this inconvenient truth
What have we become.

2008-04-10T01:29:00.003+08:00

today i past a bunch of kids and saw them running around playing and they were having fun and enjoying themselves as if they were in a world of their own. so do you remember wad made u happy like 5 years ago and what does now, wad made u happy yesterday and wads gonna make u happy tmr? In life there are many phases and expectations that u would want to meet in time to come. Bt i think wads important is that u remember and know what makes u happy, nt what doesnt. Probably everyones looking for that world too its just that who's included in that little circle of yours.

im illlllllllllllllllllllllllllll and i needs to clubbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb and i think i forgot how booze taste like.

do you think you can find it

2008-04-02T03:04:00.002+08:00

In jus an unsightly moment u robbed me off all my feelings, when i left my guard down. just like everything else i already have with u + my heart.

fool for you

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel
I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight's our last stand

2008-03-30T02:03:00.005+08:00

say hi to my friend frm MARS

havent blogg since forever, ok im damn busy these days. Bridget ji jerms and viknesh FINALLY came BACK from bangkok ok i miss them 10 000. Have been working lately and i must say its really goooooooood!! Oh and my dad jus came back frm a swim and now he's complaining abt having aches i dont knw how bt anyway its random. errr ok im actually waiting for my gifts frm the guys jus in case u guys are reading ya thanks in advance AHA! and i hope i can gym or swim real soon im like neng alrdy

lips blood colored red a kiss and mends anything that breaks

2008-03-22T02:29:00.002+08:00

Swim swim swim swim swim swim swim swim swim swim swim swim swim

Love is tragic, love is bold, you will always do what you were told
Love is hard, love is strong, you will never say that you belong
I don't know when I got bitter, but love is surely better when it's gone
Cause you wanted more
More than I could give
More than I could handle
And a life that I can't live
You wanted more
More than I could bear
More than I could offer
For a love that isn't there
Love is color, love is loud, love is never saying you're too proud
Love is trusting, love is honest, love is not a hand to hold you down

2008-03-17T19:51:00.002+08:00

this few days have been quite busy and eventful i must say. well lets see, i've been to dam and och(we tried scaring each other's ass off) with sharul amos grace and aaron, since sharul was driving like F1 and decided that he's gt alot of petrol to spare. hm.. ive been practicing swimming abit lately since im slow so ive gotta brush up and fortunately ive gt the company of my friends so we went Jurong east swimming complex and the last time i went there was years ago if i didnt remember wrongly cause i don't really like swimming tt much in the past. These couple of days ive been going out with my classmates and i met a new friend introduced through Aaron her name's lilian and ya she's really socialble and nice all of us agreed on that she's an old friend of Aaron's and she's really sporty and quite funny i must say. Been gng town more lately and aaron and i always end up at our 'port'(skate park) slacking and talking out stuffs it's kinda gay well but we try to help each other sort out our problems and stuff if we could.

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don’t make me change my mind I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

2008-03-11T00:12:00.004+08:00

i was asleep when my phone rang i picked it up and guess what?! i`ve got a JOB!!! And i think its great cause im both broke and bored after idling since holiday started and so did my job hunt, bt there're some stuffs that i've got to give up like meeting up with my friends, attending trainings and stuff but all in all there's a price to pay for everything in this world. And so these few days have been great too i hung out more with my classmates and they're a bunch of funny idiots bt still, i really enjoyed myself! not forgetting all the fantastic movies ive watched like stepup2 & 10000BC i would say that they're bth at least 4/5 stars movies! so go watch them if u haven't. And yesterday i went for my 1st lifesaving lesson along with aaron shujie and guo wei and that's our class just the four of us, its really really fun although tiring and i cant wait to pass through the whole thing and hunt for another job like meng hopefully before june. I don't knw y but i've been starting to play dota again after such a long time and yes its damn addicitve and geeky so that's all folks!

NIKE HERE I COME!

2008-03-06T17:31:00.003+08:00

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know youre unlike any other
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I dont wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder.

i was born to tell you i love u.

2008-03-04T01:09:00.003+08:00

i think im flying

to ward off evil

always make me jealous __

aku solo

see AGAIN i told u !!

fashionister according to jerms

2008-02-29T02:51:00.004+08:00

jerm's birthday

ok i need a f***ing job thanks.

2008-02-25T15:14:00.002+08:00

today we're gonna celebrate jerm's birthday hey ho lets go!

BREATHLESSSSSSSSSSSsssssssssssssssssss

If our love was a fairytale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do
And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I'm thankful for the life we've made
And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don't even know how very special you are

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special
I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

2008-02-25T01:24:00.002+08:00

sometimes we just miss things we can never turn back time to get back, no matter what. an event, a time, a person; a feeling. remorseful for missing it today im sorry to u, if u'r ever gonna read this. i knw whatever reasons i gave sounded like lies and bunch of lame excuses, but whatever it is i dare nt seek forgiveness because i knw its too much to forgive, yet i still hope that this can be forgotten over time, im nt afraid or care much abt what's gonna happen back to me or so bt i jus wan u to knw tt im really sorry for the things i did and didnt do. as a matter of fact, i wanted to be there and i didnt knw or realise the importance of myself and maybe i tht my presence was jus additional and tt u wouldnt go brood and think much abt it like hw it has been for the past 20 years. and maybe i just dont understand the real meaning of importance and im truly and sincerely sorry .

Lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JERMS TABS AND BROTHER.

2008-02-21T04:06:00.004+08:00

aaron suggested we go shop hop and we came out with all these pictures

ZOUK WAS FUN x11231203102393139 and everyone was drunk again good day.
in anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY MING.

Lost till you're found
Swim till you drown
Know that we all fall down
Love till you hate
Jump till you break
Know that we all fall down
If ever your will starts crashing down
Whenever your will starts crashing down
If ever your will starts crashing down
That's when you'll find me.

2008-02-20T02:52:00.003+08:00

steady khakis in sch nt so outside, ok just kidding.

came back from balihouse went drinking with my funny classmates. ok aaron puked in the cab and guo wei puked in the train, after which we stopped over at raffles and from then he puked all the way till we were in the cab and i had no choice bt to call shu jie down to pick him up, he was dead wasted and so was aaron(i heard he fell flat on his dad when his dad opened the door) tt was quite funny. well we were suppose to go out on a class outing(meaning only our clique in the class) and we did, we went to play billiard eat and chill landing up there and thereafter everyone was quite dead. i met des ming and jerms when i was on my way hme, they were at the kopitiam eating and lepaking. we chatted for awhile and i decide to head home to await my hangover. soon enuff i woke up 1 hr after my sleep and here i m accompanied by my killer headache nice. Feels like my body's supporting a time bomb my head keeps throbbing and my world's quite spinning. good nightttttt

booze puts a timebomb in your head and love puts a timebomb in your heart.

which is worst to gain your heart's desire or to lose them all

2008-02-19T13:52:00.003+08:00

coca cola and so much fun
all hail the heartbreaker
BL

Fiercest and tenderest are the loving and daring

2008-02-16T21:17:00.006+08:00

squint your eyes and u can see much better i think

pigface and goldfish
narcissism
pepper lunch and birthday boy

i rubbed my face and the picture turn out to be smth like this mr fun nei
i tried to smile properly

dig nose caught in act

we had another spare hand for posing so we jus made full use of it
bionics of today
sexyback-side

studying hard for our papers

i LOVE MY FRIENDS!!

i hope what they say to not be true, that there's always love when it comes to u. i wana be your hero, protect u and safe u from everything. But reality hits me back to ground zero, leaving me with nothing i can do in jus a blink.

i'll be there for u these five words i swear to u..

for all u know nothing else matters.

2008-02-14T01:30:00.003+08:00

sometimes half the world apart we are, we leave ourselves many questions. Questions like if we are thought of the same way we think, questions like if we our exisitence still matter or of any significance. And if at that point of time we could teleport right beside to that person we have in mind and see for ourselves maybe everything would be different entirely. Many questions, some answered most we'll never find out.

Some gifts are big some gifts are small gifts from the heart are the best gifts of all.

Pablo Neruda, "Love Sonnet XVII" :
I love you without knowing how, when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way than this;
where I does not exist nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

Happy Valentine's day.

if i had eyes

2008-02-11T00:19:00.000+08:00

Exam is in like what, 4 days? im in a mess i barely knw much and i think i have gt to go join summer school ok everything sucks i cant go anywhere, deprived of all the fun booze club and more other fun ^^ except muggggg every second ok not exactly but whatever, tmr i'd be meeting the rest for remedials and spending more time with my books till whatever time. ok guess what ji bastard me AGAIN because he always nvr on me and today yet AGAIN when i always go over to his place ya bt no nt gay time, but some workout time. So i went alone to tiong bahru park. Interestingly i saw a bunch of yps(young punks) ehhh.... carrying weapons literally i dont knw for what reasons bt yep the bunch made up of bout 10 peeps, ok all indians and not long after i saw like 4 police cars patroling arnd the neighbourhood. whatever and oh not forgetting i made a new friend today his name is mohinder and he's pretty old ok nt really bt odd thirties he was with he's friend oh and he's frm bangalore he told me about a place called goa some part of india where the activities and streets bustle with loads of fun all night and it sounds pretty much interesting and cool to visit someday i thought. So speaking of travelling a bell rang on the inside of my head, ji's gng bangkok this holiday with jerms and bridget ok i was suppose to join them but after giving it some careful thought i guess not, cause ive jus been there like last june it was alright, but joining ernest and clique to tio mun for diving wouldnt be a bad option too so yea most prob this march i'd be heading there hopefully if everythings smooth. And guess its time for me to mug again alright till then.

IF FEELS LIKE TONIGHT.

im waiting for that day, the day i see that pretty face of yours again.

2008-02-06T22:56:00.000+08:00

my catch!

best cny since forever ok!! i bought quite some stuffs for cny which cost me a bomb bt i didnt pay a single cent cause my aunts are damn nice they brought me shopping so here's almost all tt ive got. a vest 4 shirt 1 jacket 1 pull over 1 slip on shoe and 1 bag. ok town was damn pack today and yesterday singaporeans are singaporeans all doing their last min shoppings i went topman it was flooded with peeps i ciao cause dont have my waist size and the crowd was madly rushing to make their payments at the cashier, tangs was closing really early today ok i knw so were the rest of orchard and singapore. i cant find smth for myself so my aunt and i were rushing like mad over to ben sherman. they too were closed, bt my aunt somehw manage to ask the guy to re-open for us thankfully and fortunately i quickly grab some stuffs then ciao back to payar lebar for my reunion dinner the steamboat was scrumptious and very appealing ok too bad i didnt take any pictures like bridget the fat cow. Ok whatever i cant wait to get dress and get my angz tmr woohoo.

2008-02-04T21:32:00.000+08:00

someone cook for me pls, i need gd food its been really bad these days my appetite sucks probably because of all the same food i see everyday i dread thinking of what to eat cause nth seems to satisfy me much these days, today at canteen 1 i ordered bee hoon with nugget and some other stuff i took like 2 bites and left the whole thing untouched, the food was really bad after which i bought no.9 frm the jap stall i cldnt finish the whole thing as well though im really hungry i dont knw y everyone thinks its so nice when its so damn freakkin oily and gross. ok today after MT prac we went to have lunch and played boardgames at myspace for 5 hrs str8 nice. After school rushed to gombak again for my driving, and damn ive gotta wait till april till i can take my ftt and book my tp, screwed. hope someone withdraw meanwhile or smth these days when i check then i can take their slot and speed up the everslow pace of getting a license. Cny's in 2 days and ive yet to get my stuffs, guess i'll jus head to twn tmr to do my last min shopping!!!! i cant wait for my red packets and exam to be over, anyway tmr's the last day of sch which means i need to job hunt alrdy bt i dont seem to last anywhere lol, ok whatever im really bored and tired today.

2008-02-01T00:15:00.000+08:00

from left (me, cheris and shuan whom hasnt done any work since day 1)

comtool kit presentation today, went pretty smooth and thanks to wei jie for lending me his belt or i wld look like some sissy. so anyway we got a B which is very good for a grp of actually 2 the other 1 jus read from the slides because he never do any work. So anyway i dont know what u call it bt this is the 'smartest' ive dressed to school since i was in kindergarden. And finally IS is officially over. So anyway i met justin along the way to canteen 2 today, we chat a little in which he tried to lie abt him being in FMS because his gf is in that course so ya. oh and i went to canteen 2 reason being meet becky for lunch after nt seeing her for 12391203912 years and yea she still looked as gooooooddd :X met my homies and wei lian drove us to bukit timah market to eat again after tt we went our seperate ways back home once i reach hme i slept all the way for 6 hrs str8 and i jus came back frm a jog at tiong bahru park and it was really refreshing anyway hairul was very sweet, he was afraid tt i wld get kidnap so he tried persuading me not to go. Gotta go soon cause ive gotta meet my homies tmr at kelvins place for a swim before class and its really freakkin early hope i wont be late.

if you fall i will catch you i'll be waiting, time after time.

2008-01-30T00:28:00.001+08:00

these days every word i typed seems to be configured to auto-delete and i've gt lesser and lesser to blog about. what should i say hm.. ok today i started class at 8 and it ended at 430, i chiong to gombak for my practs by teksi and it was very fun. i did parking and speeding and the instructor didnt s**** me yay! oh nt forgetting driving wei lian's pick-up in sch today lol madness kelvin was freaked out i guess, when he heard me wanting to drive he jus got off the car and stood there. probably cause the 1st time i tried to drive i went backwards instead of forward and hit the curb :X oh yea back to where i was, they all were yelling into my ears cause i kept telling myself to pretend that they werent there and drive like a madman because they like to chase me arnd like kids in class. After my practs i went over to meet ji and we went elsewhere which i cant state cause someone would find out through reading my blog i guess and then back to his place to gym.. oh we look like 2 idiots in jeans and polo's working out because ji was too lazy to get change. And my nutrition for today came frm only 2 pratas and 1 doughnut because somehw i was too busy and lazy to eat i guess.

somehow it seems like nothing matches, nothings perfect, nothings right, nothings easy, nothings possible, nothings left.

Welcome to the planet.
Welcome to existence.
Everyone's here ,
everybody's watching you now,
everybody waits for you now.
What happens next,
I dare you to move.

2008-01-27T17:45:00.000+08:00

colored squares

waterfall

me sean and the croc.

leonard bridget sean

hardrock

Happy birthday sean!! ok i knw im a day early but whatever, hope u enjoyed your 20th birthday Oldie.

2008-01-21T00:45:00.000+08:00

hello everyone.
Agm(annual general meeting) or isit? on the 26th this mth. so i was told to dress formally, eh... its the day in which the new commity would be selected and i dont know what else would happen on the day itself bt it shld be quite formal i suppose. so anyway i went ubi for my practical today it was fun as usual bt its sorta boring me out at the same time practicing over and over again passing same buildings same routes same place if only i could go highway with a L plate. whatever it is i hope i can pass my ftt asap and book my tp. Tomorrow's mt pract, sian i hate monday its not only the monday blues everyone gets but ive gotta wake up 630 in the morning cause my class starts at 8 and ends at freaggin 5 pm proceed to peer tutoring starting at 5 ending at 7 then probably gym, depending on gay ji that tore his tendons or sme crap bt he's 1 funny little white boy.

the harder you search the harder it would be for you to find what you're looking for

many say that the capacity of a heart only holds 1 person, bt the question is do u know where and what lies in your heart?

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?
Kill
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

ok sean's birthday is in exactly a week's time so people u knw what that means.

2008-01-18T21:25:00.000+08:00

boring.... im rotting at home now, ok im starting to hate weekends. cause im damn busy during weekdays and during weekends my days are quite empty and boring everything we do seems to be like a routine i need a holiday i need to do smth fun as in more fun and more unusual to spice up my currently mundane life. i havent been to zouk for like freakking 2 mths and i hope that we can go tmr. So anyway i havent been talking much abt myself lately here, so here's it. Trainings are stepping up and its burning me out, exams are coming and its driving me crazy, my weekends are nothing and i prefer rotting at home, i cant go shopping so i have to wait for cny cause my pockets empty. cant wait till my exams are over and done with then probably we could go elsewhere, smewhere out of this small dot on the world map.

eveyone needs a little miracle in their life who doesnt?