It's been a really long time since i've last blogged about something according to the date of my previous post. Well it's not dead case anyone's wondering but i just needed to spill my heart on a piece of paper but i've decided to save the trees so here i am, same old same old. Working currently at AC nelson it's a marketing survey company good enough to get by and waiting to enter army which is pretty soon Aug03 SPF(Singapore Police Force). Though i'm appealing for a change into navy or army but well we'll see as it goes, worst to worst i'll just rant on my next post when i book out. Cheers
This time round I think I deserve something better than a lie. It's as if right from the start, everything was planned to fail because of the clandestine choices u make and what made u. I feel in a way cheated? We were both so smooth sailing at start like I've always imagined it to be and if there's anything we could always have it ironed out because we both have a common understanding and we never fail to be fine after a day angry or two, but this time it's different. u can't even make up your mind though u claimed u had, all your actions seems to be colliding with your words. If u are that obedient to do what u were told to to stay away y can't u be that obedient when it comes to other stuffs? I must admit that I've not given u my 100% but at least I kept no lies between us and I don't betray your trust time and again. Yes we said to not look back and talk about the past but how many times have i forgave u with regards to similar incidents? See, the thing about trust is that it's earned not given and after each time it seems to be so routine. Does that mean that u can be never trusted? I'm not saying that being forgiving is that all great and yes i do know that i'm revengeful and probably over-reacting to some but because the way u seem to treat it so lightly to have it repeated time and again just makes me feel that i cant take this down so easily i'm sensitive and worst over issues like these that ive mentioned and you do know that, and the consequences that comes with it but still you went ahead to doom us. I don't think of u like the way u doubt me with your mentality and actions when it should rightfully be the other way. I don't expect everything from u when I don't fulfill all my parts like u do. These are the fundamentals of a relationship. I'm not laying everything out because I wana tell u or the world hey who's right or wrong because we both have that answer inside our hearts and I think it's suffice. And please don't tell me how much u love me when u can't even show me that u are willing to go through anything to want me back. Yes u might be vulnerable now but you're not useless, love gives us strength and don't tell me u can't do nothing about it or tried your best because this is nothing. If u think having all your friends by u and some other random people to make your day by day and that's your true definition of being happy i wish you well because mine consist everything more than that. On a final note i would like to add that i'm utterly disappointed to come this far after so long to have your mistakes repeated. So much for betraying the trust of the person u claim to have trust most in your life.
There's no 4 elements only 3. Love faith and trust
time now is 11:50 AM
Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.
